When you get pushed into circumstances
unknowingly and they turn out to be adverse, even ugly, you quickly tell
yourself it was karma, because you had no valid explanation. But when,
knowingly, you step into such circumstances, there is anger. Even rage, at
yourself, either for having trusted the wrong people or having listened against
your inner voice to someone you "respected" Or for a cloudy judgment.
In any case, it IS karma to be in a place and among people you were chosen to
be with. But it is very difficult to look at it this way when your life is
crumbling to pieces and your desires are a distant dream.
Changing your place and your space gives
you breathing space.
As you grow older, perhaps, you only seek
consolidation of people around you who have stood the test of time AND been
with you, People who have been kind and loving, healing in their presence. And
I understand why the importance is not "family" per se but souls who
may or may not be family but who have a salutary effect on you. Oh yes, and
loyal, too.
Old postulates and belief systems are just
that: old. And often don't work. What works is being among those who see your
chinks but treat them and you lovingly and accept without criticism and without
judgment.
For, who really knows when your last day
might be?
Surekha Kothari
surekhakothari.wordpress.com
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